Welcome To My Universe

I can say that i've been recieving a lot of good new and that i should be happy because of them, and of course i am but i can say that i'm totally happy, why ? because i don't why but everytime you're excited about something something goes wrong, something has to cause you sadness at the same time ! WHY! WHY DOES THAT HAS TO HAPPEN TO ME EVERY TIME !?
i don't know...
anyway luckily the situation is a little better cause because of that i really wanted to dissapear of the world... and i'm not joking...
Anyway the cause of the sadness has to do with the cause of the happyness too it's insane!
anyway the thing is that i know have a boyfriend and because of him i've had some issues with my parents, luckily they're better now, but it's still tense and i haven't forget what they said to me, it was really cruel and mean...
I never fight with my parents and i love them a lot so that's why it's been hard for me to deal with it but i'm in the way to solve it, i don't want any problems i just want to be free and happy.
Anyway seing the good part of it i'm really happy that things between he and i are getting more serious that was exactly what i wanted to happen, hope everything continues going in the same direction, cause even if i do want it to be serious i don't want to do something in particular that could come from this, anyway i'm not changing my mind for anybody even if that could hurt me.
I'll continue as i am, i won't change a thing at least not in the bad way and i want my parents to know that i told them so but i'm not quite sure if they seriously believe me....
Even though i've never lied to them !
Anyway i don't know what's on their mind lately...
Moving to another subject today i went to an audition for an orchestra and i got selected so i'm happy about it =)
The only thing that has alway been there to support me and has never leave me, has helped me to deal with all my problems, the one that helps me to be happy, to leave out all the sadness, my violin! i'm in love with my violin, because he's always there and i know he'll always be there unless i leave him, thing that i don't think would ever be possible...
To end todays writting i can say that i hope this situation gets better !
PLEASE I BEG FOT IT TO GET BETTER !
I don't want to suffer anymore first my best friend left me( luckily she got back to me) and now my parents ? hope not.
ok i'll continue with the make over to my bedroom :B
I just made an amanita muscaria out of "paño lenci" xD
it's the cutest thing hahahaha
ok that's all
Nicole
PD: even though i have suffer a bit, i'm the happiest girl in the world ! ;) (L)