Welcome To My Universe

so i needed to write...
like to let everything i'm feeling now go...
i haven't write in a long time, i don't have time u.u
today i went to a friend's house and there were me, she and a friend i met at her house like a month ago...
since i met him i thought he was a nice guy, funny and with a sense of humor like mine, but nothing more than that
But then as we met for the second time the thing that always happens to me and that i didn't wanted to happen, happened... ¬¬
i kinda like him... and i don't want to cause i know he doesn't like me i don't understand why everytime i met someone i kinda have to fall for him...
it's stupid, my heart is stupid, anyway i almost never see him so it's worse !
i was kinda happy but now sad, i hate sadness...
i wish i could forget all of this and that tomorrow i could wake up feeling nothing, well not nothing but not what i'm feelin right now...
he's nice but it's something that's never going to happen....
well i'm beeing tragic ok but i think it isn't going to happen
what should i do now ? believe in a chance or just forget
how can i be sure that he doesn't feel anything ? i just guess but at the same time i'm pretty sure...
i kinda hate lovely boys because i always fall for them just because they're lovely, they threat you well but that's it they don't feel what you feel for them.,,
anyway i think i better forget and stop writting stupid things :)
i think i'm going to bed now i want to continue my reading, i'm like in the climax of Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen, i have become such a fan of Jane Austen's books, i want to buy myself the books and the movies specially pride & prejudice that's my fav one...
stupid romantic song that's playing right now (you make me feel brand new by simply red) nice song but not for this moment (changing it) ok that's better
you see ? i'm writting nonsense hahaha
better go to bed now
until the next time
Nicole
i just loved the old times when the girls only had to wait until a boy comes to their door and ask for their hands... but don't get me wrong, i don't like arrange marriages i just like the fact that it was kinda easier before... not that easy because you had to look for a rich man, but i think it was a more romantic era... that's what i think anyway i think it's the influence of the book i'm reading.
it's weird the way i change my mind... but i'm not going to write about that...
Another thing that's on my mind is that i want an AFI cd, i'm still dreaming of having Sing the Sorrow that's my fave one... but i can't find it in here T_T
anyway there are many things i would like to have like the german version of tokio hotels cds and the italian version of sonohra's album too...
the question is should i go to that "amanitrance" party or not ?
i kinda wanna go but still not sure i love amanitas (L)
hahaha :) that's todays picture btw amanitas muscarias (L)