Welcome To My Universe

I think the tittle pretty much explains it all.
I don't know what's happening to me...
If you can explain. Please tell me.
I'm in the middle of an enigma
that i can't resolve.
What's with my feelings?
Can a person actually make it all return and leave a lot of times
if you know what i'm saying
not everything is that easy
i mean it's obvious, life is full of troubles
but why is that it always affect me that hard?
What's up with my heart?
Why does it insist that much on loving someone that doesn't love me back?
What's up with my brain?
It always insist that what my heart says is stupid and that it isn't real.
Why is it that everytime i fell in love with someone that person doesn't love me back or leaves, because he is from another city...
Why can't i be pleased being alone? without loving someone
Why must i be in love with someone?
Why?why?why?
A lot of questions with no answer
that isn't good
Tell me for what am i leaving?
why ? why should i continue existing?
for what?
I don't do anything that will help anybody
I'm alive to be alive
To suffer
To see how many things i'll like to do and that i can't
To see how many things i'll like to be and that i can't be
Day by day i'm watching it all fall down.
My dreams...my wishes...my goals...
everything is falling apart
falling into dust.
All my life is frustrating, annoying,useless and disappointing...
Why can't i end my life?
I'm to coward to do it by myself
I need help for that but who's gonna help me?
There's a secret path waiting for me
A path to reach happiness
A path into the unknown
A path to my salvation
Would you show it to me?
no!
cause you're not interested
So i better go and do something productive cause i have to continue doing all the stuffs i don't want to do
For what?
to become something, someone in this fucked up world.
Or at least to try
Try to be someone or something that i don't really want to become...
But i don't have a choice
Cause what i want to become it's impossible to reach
or at least it doesn't give you what you need to survive
........
i could continue but it'll get worse
so i'll finish here
with no photo this time cause i don't want to...