Welcome To My Universe

everything or at least almost everything has been going good lately...
i hope it continues so
everything between my family is calm now, or at least with my mom, my dad seems to be a little stressed but i think thats because of the job.. i don't know
with my boyfriend everything goes better and better i love him more and more every day, i hope nothing ruins it and that our love continue to growing stronger!
at school i've got only 4 days left !! yay !
at the conservatory i've got like 2 or 3 weeks left and some controls !
but everything is going fine.
I'm in the bicentenary orchestra and i like it!
what elsE?
I don't really know right now
I got an invitation for sunday to make sushi with some friends, i hope we do it
I've been wanting to eat sushi for like a month now XD
they told me to invite my boyfriend i hope he accepts it, it would be awesome if he goes :B
anyway july is coming ! and with it also my b-day !
I still can't believe i'm getting 18! my gosh XD
What i also can't believe is Michael Jacksons death !
i know he wasn't perferct and he had some mental problems in my perception, but he was a talented and excellent musician ! he's songs were very good too :B
anyway we will always remember him
this reminds me when heath ledger died i still can't believe that !
D:
anyway that's how life is... u.u
ok that was all for now i want to sleep now :B
Nicole

I can say that i've been recieving a lot of good new and that i should be happy because of them, and of course i am but i can say that i'm totally happy, why ? because i don't why but everytime you're excited about something something goes wrong, something has to cause you sadness at the same time ! WHY! WHY DOES THAT HAS TO HAPPEN TO ME EVERY TIME !?
i don't know...
anyway luckily the situation is a little better cause because of that i really wanted to dissapear of the world... and i'm not joking...
Anyway the cause of the sadness has to do with the cause of the happyness too it's insane!
anyway the thing is that i know have a boyfriend and because of him i've had some issues with my parents, luckily they're better now, but it's still tense and i haven't forget what they said to me, it was really cruel and mean...
I never fight with my parents and i love them a lot so that's why it's been hard for me to deal with it but i'm in the way to solve it, i don't want any problems i just want to be free and happy.
Anyway seing the good part of it i'm really happy that things between he and i are getting more serious that was exactly what i wanted to happen, hope everything continues going in the same direction, cause even if i do want it to be serious i don't want to do something in particular that could come from this, anyway i'm not changing my mind for anybody even if that could hurt me.
I'll continue as i am, i won't change a thing at least not in the bad way and i want my parents to know that i told them so but i'm not quite sure if they seriously believe me....
Even though i've never lied to them !
Anyway i don't know what's on their mind lately...
Moving to another subject today i went to an audition for an orchestra and i got selected so i'm happy about it =)
The only thing that has alway been there to support me and has never leave me, has helped me to deal with all my problems, the one that helps me to be happy, to leave out all the sadness, my violin! i'm in love with my violin, because he's always there and i know he'll always be there unless i leave him, thing that i don't think would ever be possible...
To end todays writting i can say that i hope this situation gets better !
PLEASE I BEG FOT IT TO GET BETTER !
I don't want to suffer anymore first my best friend left me( luckily she got back to me) and now my parents ? hope not.
ok i'll continue with the make over to my bedroom :B
I just made an amanita muscaria out of "paño lenci" xD
it's the cutest thing hahahaha
ok that's all
Nicole
PD: even though i have suffer a bit, i'm the happiest girl in the world ! ;) (L)

vuela vuela el ave de sus aposentos,
vuela en busca de un amor ausente,
un amor distante...

busca y busca sin respuesta,
¿dónde es que te encuentras?
Por las copas de los árboles y la cima de las montañas,
busca y busca y no te encuentra
¿ es que acaso te has marchado?

Sigue la búsqueda
el ave está dispuesta a llegar al fin del mundo para encontrarte...
¿así le respondes?
No

Apareces ave como mariposa,
vas y vienes
revoloteas el mundo un rato y luego te marchas,
dejando nada mas que un recuerdo.

Pero es ese recuerdo,
ese recuerdo,
el que hace al ave quererte tanto.

Eres su razon para volar,
eres tu ave sus alas,
eres tu ave su alma,
eres tu ave su mundo

Aparece ave mariposa y revolotea un rato por aqui
el ave te espera
el ave te extraña
el ave necesita su alimento para vivir.

vuela vuela el ave junto a su ave mariposa
y juntos descubren el color de las rosas...

You might see that my english here may not be so perfect but i think it's pretty good for my level and considering that i've always becomed 7's as grade for my english oral presentations i still can't understand how could it be possible that this time i got like 16,5 from 20 points (still don't know what grade that is) but is obviously less than a 7, anyway i know it's my fault cause i read all the information instead of speaking freely and now i hate myself for that i knew i should have listened to me. I should have made my oral presentation alone and speak about music or the violin with that i would have had a 7 for sure...
anyway i have to forget that, past is past and i can't change it now i have to focus for next semestre to make a really good work :)
Moving along i have been talking to my head teacher because i need help on what career to choose she was a really good help for me and i really appreciate that!
One of my best friends has been weird to me since monday, she like doesn't talk to me too much...
hope that gets better... i don't like it when that happen it's sad.
Luckily i have my other friend who i also care for a lot :)
and my other best friend who's always there to support me too :)
I have my german test tomorrow i'm a little scared ! even i had always good grades in german this test in particulary is very scary, i need to use german history too :S
I had like an idea, how would it be to write all of this in german instead of english ? i think it would take me way more time than in english ! hahahah xD
anyway what else ?
i have doubts about something i don't really wanna talk about.
But i'm not sure wheater i should let it happen or not...
I think (and that's what my friends also say) that i should inform myself a little more.. i think that's what i'm going to do and i will let it all flow, i will let it all in Gods hands, that's the best thing i think. :B
I now have orchestra in the conservatory again, and in relation to the school orchestra we're not going to Osorno because of the swine flu and we even might not play here in valdivia either... ¬¬
anyway hope this swine flu thing get's better because it isn't good!
my friend that was supose to go to the orchestra has still not come ¬¬ anyway hope one day he goes hahah xD :)
In other news i recieved a letter from hugo boss on deviantart a few days ago saying that they liked one of my works and my style and that i should totally participate on their perfume contest, but i just realised that it's until the 30th of June and you have to be over 18 ¬¬ why couldn't it be for 30th of July T_T anyway i'm happy anyway :)
ok it's enough now :P
Nicole

PS: today's picture felix the cat :B