Welcome To My Universe
sábado, 13 de octubre de 2007
Not everything will always be alright
I think the tittle pretty much explains it all.
I don't know what's happening to me...
If you can explain. Please tell me.
I'm in the middle of an enigma
that i can't resolve.
What's with my feelings?
Can a person actually make it all return and leave a lot of times
if you know what i'm saying
not everything is that easy
i mean it's obvious, life is full of troubles
but why is that it always affect me that hard?
What's up with my heart?
Why does it insist that much on loving someone that doesn't love me back?
What's up with my brain?
It always insist that what my heart says is stupid and that it isn't real.
Why is it that everytime i fell in love with someone that person doesn't love me back or leaves, because he is from another city...
Why can't i be pleased being alone? without loving someone
Why must i be in love with someone?
Why?why?why?
A lot of questions with no answer
that isn't good
Tell me for what am i leaving?
why ? why should i continue existing?
for what?
I don't do anything that will help anybody
I'm alive to be alive
To suffer
To see how many things i'll like to do and that i can't
To see how many things i'll like to be and that i can't be
Day by day i'm watching it all fall down.
My dreams...my wishes...my goals...
everything is falling apart
falling into dust.
All my life is frustrating, annoying,useless and disappointing...
Why can't i end my life?
I'm to coward to do it by myself
I need help for that but who's gonna help me?
There's a secret path waiting for me
A path to reach happiness
A path into the unknown
A path to my salvation
Would you show it to me?
no!
cause you're not interested
So i better go and do something productive cause i have to continue doing all the stuffs i don't want to do
For what?
to become something, someone in this fucked up world.
Or at least to try
Try to be someone or something that i don't really want to become...
But i don't have a choice
Cause what i want to become it's impossible to reach
or at least it doesn't give you what you need to survive
........
i could continue but it'll get worse
so i'll finish here
with no photo this time cause i don't want to...
I don't know what's happening to me...
If you can explain. Please tell me.
I'm in the middle of an enigma
that i can't resolve.
What's with my feelings?
Can a person actually make it all return and leave a lot of times
if you know what i'm saying
not everything is that easy
i mean it's obvious, life is full of troubles
but why is that it always affect me that hard?
What's up with my heart?
Why does it insist that much on loving someone that doesn't love me back?
What's up with my brain?
It always insist that what my heart says is stupid and that it isn't real.
Why is it that everytime i fell in love with someone that person doesn't love me back or leaves, because he is from another city...
Why can't i be pleased being alone? without loving someone
Why must i be in love with someone?
Why?why?why?
A lot of questions with no answer
that isn't good
Tell me for what am i leaving?
why ? why should i continue existing?
for what?
I don't do anything that will help anybody
I'm alive to be alive
To suffer
To see how many things i'll like to do and that i can't
To see how many things i'll like to be and that i can't be
Day by day i'm watching it all fall down.
My dreams...my wishes...my goals...
everything is falling apart
falling into dust.
All my life is frustrating, annoying,useless and disappointing...
Why can't i end my life?
I'm to coward to do it by myself
I need help for that but who's gonna help me?
There's a secret path waiting for me
A path to reach happiness
A path into the unknown
A path to my salvation
Would you show it to me?
no!
cause you're not interested
So i better go and do something productive cause i have to continue doing all the stuffs i don't want to do
For what?
to become something, someone in this fucked up world.
Or at least to try
Try to be someone or something that i don't really want to become...
But i don't have a choice
Cause what i want to become it's impossible to reach
or at least it doesn't give you what you need to survive
........
i could continue but it'll get worse
so i'll finish here
with no photo this time cause i don't want to...
jueves, 4 de octubre de 2007
So i start again with a brand new layout
Yeah i know i'm not starting all again but i do have a new layout/template whaterver xD
I was so bored of the templates this blog has that decided to make me a new one so i took the idea from a website and then made the bg image to put in the bg. I like it, i mean it's not the best layout you will ever seen also because the bg image isn't good aligned but i like it anyway and i like it with my own picture hahaha
cause yeah it's me on the background bitches! hahaha sorry for that word xD
What can i tell you now? umm i don't know. I've had a lot of stuff to do at school lately.
I'm so like sick of it right now and it isn't even december yet!
I need some vacations now hahaha
I wanna do like a lot of stuff for example: writing you know i've written what people now call
a fanfic but i was never able to finally end it
i also wanna be able to practice more with my violin and search for new songs to play
I wanna do some art too on photoshop and look for some other tutorials to learn
new stuff
So as you can see a lot of things but i just don't have the time
But yeah i don't have a choice
Even if i would love to live from music and art and travel around the world
showing the world my music and art too
I know that the possibilities for it to happen are like 0.000001 percent
so i must study so i can go to college then and um well study something
That i don't really know what ! cause i can't see myself in an office like seated
I just can't but well sometime things aren't like you want them to be
Even i know that you never know what the future has for you
So i'll wait paciently until my dream come true
-Nicole
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Today's picture was made by me with photoshop
the pictures were taken from different stocks on DA and other website
the title of it is whatever your heart guides you
why?because that's what represents to me or maybe
other things too
But well you can make your own interpratation out of it ;)
